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The Right Call




Would that be an answer from God?
When you pray for your insecure feeling of might or might not getting hurt from your current partner, God keeps him away from you. Like, immediately. He somehow brightened up your mind of logic and faded out your lovingly heart. He shows you the way. The bad clues are everywhere. Would you follow those signs? I would and I'm glad I did. And now it's up for you to make the right call.




My so-called Confession



Communication. It’s the first simple thing that we really learn in our life. However, the funny thing is once we grow up bigger, and really start talking, the trickier it becomes to know what to say. Or, how to ask for what we really want…
This situation must be familiar, right? Because it does happening in most people, including me. You know, I maybe not a people person to everyone. I just don't know what to say or do when it comes the insecure feeling towards my insecure surroundings. Sometimes, I got so many thoughts and emotions that about to burst in my head. Then, I cant deliver it right. So they may think I'm an awkward, then.. start making a fun of me. And all I could do is just laugh along with them. But deep inside, I know that they're literally laughing at me. hah.
Actually, I just don't have any idea about how to yell or complain to that 'insecure surroundings'. Seriously, I often scream to myself. The words are all around my head and when they got into my tongue, err..
In the other way, I could be the friendliest person. I could be a chatty one for hours. I could be hilarious and etcetra If I get around with the 'right' group. But still..awkward and a bit sarcastic, though. *evil laugh*
"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can’t help but talk about.
Some things, we just don’t want to hear. And some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They’re what you do. Some things you say because there’s no other choice. Some things, you keep to yourself."
"And not too often, but every now and then… some things simply speak for themselves." -- Grey's Anatomy season 2's monologue


too much to what?



When we were kids. It was candy or something else too sweet. We've gotta hid from our parents and ate them until we got toothache. When in high school or college, it was a massive loads of youth fun and also..endless procrastinating. Well, as a college student with a full life assignments cycle, We take as much of the pleasure as we can get, because it doesn’t come around as often as it possibly should be.
As we know, good things aren’t always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, for God's sake, is not always a good thing.

But, then,

How do you know how much is too much? Too soon? Too much fun? Too much love? Too much to ask? Too much to know?

And when is it all just too much to worry about?

*just saying



Not so into it

Bonjour!

I'm just still not certain about what I should write or post. Truthfully, everyone seems to be so into hosting on fashion blogs, hey I'm no way fashionista. I just love it visually--for now. My parents dont happen to be superrich so I couldn't afford fancy shoes or branded bags whatsoever. Someday, when I grow up and earn loads of money, I will fill up my closet with everything I wanted. EVERYTHING. :)

Just so you know, I love arts and all creative stuffs. I love music, movie, photography and drawing and all sorts of visual arts. Fashion is one of visual art, I guess.  And one thing for sure of all my favorites is about beauty. I love playing looklet just rely on my sense of balancing composition. tee-hee. I love magazine just wondering how to make it eye-catching with beauty layouts and pictures. I sometimes imagine myself working in magazine. I hope. I hope.

Anyways, even though I couldn't afford to host an fabolous fashion blog, please don't get bored with my babbling thoughts or my everyday life. Because I love browsing so bad, I often find some awesome things about everything. Then, I soon post it and inform to you so I hope make you feel inspired. So, thanks a bunch for your visit and sweet comments, fellas. 

*I have 3 days break from college and I'm very enthusiastic about it. I'd have so much time for stretching my brain :) Happy holiday.

Isi otak

I'm running out of idea about posting. My brain's so hectic with traffic full of thoughts. Million thoughts. So I'm going to make a list about what thoughts that complicated on my brain recently :

1. college
I always hoping that I've made a right decision about entering Nutrition Department. Doesn't mean that I regret it. I just thought that it's contradict over my passion. I'm interested in English, Computary, Visual art, and a bit Culinary. Instead of regretting and worrying , I do have great expectations because I know God would have given me the best path.

2. personal college tasks
I never thought being in nutrition department would be easy, until I sat in class on the very first day. I suddenly knew; It's more than just knowing nutritions contained in every food-stuff, guys. Well, It has so much interesting aspects to learn but the hardest thing so far is 'household MENU planning' manually without the software--due on Wednesday.
So I have to calculate my own nutritions daily needs and plan the menu based on them. Struggling with variety numbers of course. It almost fun, though. Wish me a luck!

3. my behaviour
I'm quite a thinker. I often question myself and think about the change. Am I irritating or hot-headed? Have I friendly enough? Do I ? Should I? etc.. I just always thinking about the evolution. I keep the idea of controlling my emotions and stuff. But when the moment 'pushes my button' , somehow the whole idea fades out. I know all that stuff shouldn't be stress about. All I need is practicing and have greater willingness of change.

4. my future
Honestly, sometimes I do worry about my future. It just scares me when the time's ticking real damn fast through me and it makes me wondering, "what I've done?" "which path should I follow?"
I MUST do something. At least a small better change. For me. For my parents. Make them smile. :)


*au revoir



the sweetest of the sweet couple

Happy Monday everyone!
Time for you to lift your butt off the bed and the back to world of reality, except me. haha. Holiday-land still calling me and persuade me to forget all the problems, do crazy-hell-yeah thingy and fully use my right-brain . LOL.

So dear people, we still could smell this romantic Valentine's Day as it passed through us. I do 'heart' love story. Maybe everyone does. With all the fairy tales and almost impossible idea about 'happily ever after'. I still feel err..optimist for having my upcoming true love prince, soulmate, and whateva you named it.

Speaking of true love, I had this love story below as one in million. They've married for couple of days and separated for 60 years!!! What a pure and sweet couple. Maybe some of you had heard about it. They are Anna Kozlov and Boris from Siberia. Here's the story :

When Anna Kozlov caught sight of the elderly man clambering out of a car in her home village of Borovlyanka in Siberia, she stopped dead in her tracks, convinced her eyes were playing tricks.

There, in front of her, was Boris, the man she had fallen in love with and married 60 years earlier. The last time she had seen him was three days after their wedding, when she kissed him goodbye and sent him off to rejoin his Red Army unit.

By the time he returned, Anna was gone, consigned by Stalin’s purges to internal exile in Siberia with the rest of her family as an enemy of the people. They left no forwarding address.

Frantic, Boris tried everything he could to find his young bride, but it was no good. She was gone.

Now, more than half a century later, they were reunited, an extraordinary coincidence leading them both to return to their home village on the very same day.

“I thought my eyes were playing games with me,” Anna said. “I saw this familiar looking man approaching me, his eyes gazing at me. My heart jumped. I knew it was him. I was crying with joy.”

Now 80 years old, Boris had returned to visit his parents’ grave. As he stepped out of the car, he looked up to see Anna standing by her old house, where they had lived for the few days after the wedding.

“I ran up to her and said: 'My darling, I’ve been waiting for you for so long. My wife, my life...’”

They stayed up all night, talking about everything that had happened to them and the cruel circumstances that tore them apart. They met when he was secretary of the Young Communists and had to make a speech in the village.

Afterwards, she was standing there in a circle of friends, but he had eyes only for her. Her father had been purged by Stalin before the war for refusing to work in a collective farm, but Boris did not care. She was too beautiful for words. “I loved her and would always defend her,” he recalled.

So the romance blossomed. When he came home from the front, she was always there, waiting. In 1946, they married. Three days later, he had to return to his unit. “We kissed goodbye - but I never expected we wouldn’t see each other for more than half a century,” Anna said.

Like her father, she was branded an enemy of the people and forced with the rest of her family into internal exile in Siberia.

“I threatened to commit suicide rather than go because I couldn’t live without him,” she said, “but in the end I was forced to go. It was the most miserable time of my life.”

On his return, Boris was distraught. “She was always waiting for me when I came home, but this time there was no sign of her,” he said. “Nobody knew where they were, or what had happened to Anna. That’s how we lost any track of each other”.

In their new village, Anna’s mother resolved that the girl should remarry. She told her that Boris had remarried. “She said he had forgotten about me - that’s why no letters came.

“I didn’t believe it and I longed for him so much. But one day I got back home from work at a timber plant and my mum had burned all his earlier letters, poems and pictures - including our wedding photographs.

“She told me this other man was coming to meet me - and that I should go out with him, and if I was lucky, he’d marry me. I burst into tears and rushed into the yard. The world turned black for me. I wanted to die and I got a clothes line and went into the hayloft intending to hang myself.

“My mother came in and slapped me in the face and told me not to be so stupid. She persuaded me to go out with this man, Nefed, and gradually he and my mother persuaded me that this was where my future lay.”

Boris, too, finally gave in and re-married. He became a writer, penning a book dedicated to the woman he’d married as a young soldier but only ever spent three nights with.

In time, their respective spouses died. With the demise of the Soviet Union, Anna was once more able to travel home. Then came the chance reunion. “I felt the same when we met last year,” Boris said. “I couldn’t take my eyes off her. Yes I had loved other women when we were separated. But she was the true love of my life.”

He suggested they marry again. Anna resisted, but says he talked her round. “What’s the point, I said, we can just live together they rest of our lives? But he insisted. I never thought I’d be a bride at my age but it was my happiest wedding.

“Since we found each other again, I swear we haven’t had a single quarrel. We’ve been parted for so long and who knows how much is left for us, so we just don’t want to lose time on arguing.”

That's a real sweet couple. They've been suffering and struggling their love for each other. In conclusion, it's all about feeling grateful for everything that you have, including LOVE. You dont want to suffer the regret of losing them. Seriously. Enjoy the time of togetherness. Spread your love around to your family, couple or friends. And you really will deserved the feedbacks and of course PEACEFUL life.


*au revoir C:

Love and Affection day???


lover, I love you by mudrica♥pop.art

Do we have to celebrate Valentine's Day whiches all about love?? Do we have to celebrate the love and affection day in just one day?? I know lots of people make Valentine's Day to be the idea of spreading the love you have. Love it or not, couples all around the world will break out their romance--kinda PDA maybe--to show their affections on this day. Well, I'm certainly believe that EVERYDAY is a Valentine's Day whether it's for your couple, parents, friends, even animal and nature. It's basicly in love and affection form.






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