"What I deserve is someone loyal, someone who will be there for me when I really need the support. I deserve someone honest, a person who doesn’t say one thing and then do another. I deserve to feel that I am loved, even if it’s in the middle of an argument and I’m pretty sure they want to punch me in the face because I’m being a heinous asshole, I should still know that beneath the exasperated expression is a person who loves me. I deserve someone who makes me happy more often than they make me sad. I deserve someone who respects me. You, darling reader, deserve all of these things as well. We all do." -- Thought Catalog

Staying at home for three days straight and the feeling of--as a home lover I hate to say this--bored has gotten into me. That's quite a dangerous word for a person like moi. I mean the person that too busy spending time doing things at home that 24 hours never seems to be enough. 

Well I've graduated from "le busy bee" college recently and so I thought "finally I got time to just slouch comfortably in my bed all day long I wish I'm glued to it!". Now I think that could certainly cause me a backache. And unfortunately.. it is. So Counterpain is my new best friend now along with le laptop :B (Okay It's getting irrelevant).

What I mean is being that great as a couch potato is eventually considered a waste of time. I need to get a job as soon as possible. I need to lessen my parents' worries and start to earn my own money. 
 
Yes I'm fully aware that this is the 'real life' as soon as I saw the 'welcome sign'. And it's not as easy as eating a piece of cake in order to pass through it. Alive. Hahaha. 
Can I say "challenge accepted" now?  

That's one of my daily activity when the Mr. Bluesky is in a good mood and the clouds are shamelessly showing off. One of those things that boost up my mood almost instantly. One of those things that are perfect for my daydreaming session along with a peaceful playlist. How about you? :D

This I could call a virtual karaoke with no visual. Just to brag about my lack of music skill, though (I wish I was a composer). I can only enjoy other people's music and not doing anything on my own. So I guess this can be the beginning :p because basically, I covered some artists by using their instrumental song. And the thing is I have no idea how to edit my voice (that I've recorded in my very own little cell phone, yes). So I ran into google and find the software that compatible with my computer (ok I know my windows xp system operation is a lil' bit old fashioned; don't judge me) which is Mixcraft 5.2.

It's quite simple at least for me. You can try it, too. And we can try it together as duet maybe? :)

Would that be an answer from God?
When you pray for your insecure feeling of might or might not getting hurt from your current partner, God keeps him away from you. Like, immediately. He somehow brightened up your mind of logic and faded out your lovingly heart. He shows you the way. The bad clues are everywhere. Would you follow those signs? I would and I'm glad I did. And now it's up for you to make the right call.

This early year I went through was tough. This week is even harder. Yesterday I had my proposal trial done with just 1 day of preparation. Today within a couple of hours, I'll fly to Jakarta for my hospital internship. It's two months away from home. I have had lack of relaxing time just like I used to be done back then. Hope I could catch a break there. Wish me good luck. Cheers!

I have been mesmerized by these Alex Prager's video galleries of this year's biggest actors chanelling the greatest cinematic villains. If you want to see Brad Pitt as Eraserhead, Gary Oldman as the menacing dummy, or even the innocent Mia Wasikowska as the Home Wrecker, which surprisingly brilliant--I think she's the best of all but well, after Gary Oldman of course-- you can watch them all here.

They're all simply short, yet have a magic quality that blew your mind, because they're technically moving photographs. So, you might wanna check them out they're epic.

Never been this peaceful recently. With the rain drumming on the roof and Francoise Hardy caressing my ear. And yes, here I am, munchin' on Eid's leftover cookies and end it up with a sip of cheap soda. Gratefully with no reason to worry whatsoever. Secure. No work. No assignment marathon. Just as simple as that. You know at least I still have few days before my reality bites. :-)


So how's your holy holiday people? Wow, sounds great. And Moi? Well you know. Same old, same old. No surprise. *I'm still in the hope-of-being-paid-treveler though*

Some random activities

Anyway I've been missing blogging since ages, but I didn't really have enough time to post anything (read: lazed around). Well, these past two months were completely filled with uptight college schedule; exams, final assignment, early research paper proposal,etc. My brain was tense and hectic enough to blow up by a single poke. Seriously. Joking.

On top of that, there's an issue with the gadget. I don't know. I just have no frickin idea about how fragile my laptop is. You know, I've told you before that few buttons on my keyboard has broken since I dont even remember. And, it's getting worse that all the buttons are screwed up so I must replace the whole board into the new one *sigh*. Quite expensive by the fact that I could have get it fixable earlier *another sigh* Oh I felt so bad.


Okay, enough with the fussy and whiny talk. It might bores you to the max.

Just so you know, I'm on two months of my break from college now. I had absolutely no holiday plan as my wallet is barely alive *sarcastic laugh*. Of course you might find me lie on the couch while staring at the screen all day long. Or I might realize there's still plenty things I could've done. I mean sort of "get a life!" activities outside tv series marathon watching and browsing and game onlining.

P.S: Ramadhan has just started and I must ensure myself to be a better prayer and also as a person.

P.S.S: I know this draft is a month late. I know. Peace out!

(via tumblr)

Allo Darlin - If Loneliness was Art
Arcade Fire - Cold Wind
Get Set Go - Hate
Hurts - Better Than Love
Inara George - Fools in Love
Nouvelle Vague - This is Not a Love Song
Pylon - Stop It
Razorlight - Who Needs Love
Tame Impala - Solitude is Bliss
The Radio Dept. - I Don't Need Love, I've Got My Band

Communication. It’s the first simple thing that we really learn in our life. However, the funny thing is once we grow up bigger, and really start talking, the trickier it becomes to know what to say. Or, how to ask for what we really want…
This situation must be familiar, right? Because it does happening in most people, including me. You know, I maybe not a people person to everyone. I just don't know what to say or do when it comes the insecure feeling towards my insecure surroundings. Sometimes, I got so many thoughts and emotions that about to burst in my head. Then, I cant deliver it right. So they may think I'm an awkward, then.. start making a fun of me. And all I could do is just laugh along with them. But deep inside, I know that they're literally laughing at me. hah.
Actually, I just don't have any idea about how to yell or complain to that 'insecure surroundings'. Seriously, I often scream to myself. The words are all around my head and when they got into my tongue, err..
In the other way, I could be the friendliest person. I could be a chatty one for hours. I could be hilarious and etcetra If I get around with the 'right' group. But still..awkward and a bit sarcastic, though. *evil laugh*
"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can’t help but talk about.
Some things, we just don’t want to hear. And some things we say because we can’t be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They’re what you do. Some things you say because there’s no other choice. Some things, you keep to yourself."
"And not too often, but every now and then… some things simply speak for themselves." -- Grey's Anatomy season 2's monologue

Now my fingers feel like dancing, not only with keyboard but also with stationery. Since I have no idea what to post--because I am no way a gifted writer--I decided to make a likes/dislikes list just like Cassandra Niki did. Anyhow, I call it yay/nay list *tee-hee.

Bonsoir, this is gonna be a quickie hi post because I'm currently in the middle of my final semester exam now. I should have been studied, I know. Grey's Anatomy, The Walking Dead, The Amazing Race and America's Next Top Model still haunting me.
Also these songs literally stuck in my head. You must listen. It's darn lovely. And oh, Erin McCarley is my muse now. Her songs kinda Spektor-Bareilles.:3

Anyways, I still have few drafts to be publish soon after the exam. I think I should hit the hand-outs and textbooks. So there'll be no more procrastinating, okay. Wish me great luck, dear lovely people!

How's it sounds,eh? like I am an awkward?
Whatever just keep your opinion in mind because to me, this blog title sounds better and represents me more than "choco cookie stuck in my tummy". I also change the layout, too. Although it has less character, I'm just trying to make it cleaner on your eyes.
Err, do you think the header is good enough? Well, to me it's good but I'm not sure about the width size. It's a bit rough, I know. I just wanna keep it natural and simple.
FYI, the picture was one of my scrapbook project. I chose eye-catching 'cut outs' from my old magazines and I simply glued them together. And I have to say that it's a fun way to recycle something, especially when you're obviously an amateur crafty girl and get bored to the bone. But I'd love to become a pro one someday because I've just found this awesome web about DIY magazine project. GO check it out and try one. It has loads of projects and also how to do them --> cutoutandkeep.net




And oh, I guess I've done the blog makeover faster than I expected before, huh? I thought I'd have no time due to final exam, but somehow I'm having a week-off college. Cool. And that would make me a better couch potato person. Crap.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I feel like making the most of basic things. So I've done revert the blog's background into a plain white. Now, me, still figuring out about the new header. Maybe I'll make something handwritten and scan it. And oh, the sidebar looks pretty messed up, too (gotta upgrade the links and stuff). I promise I'll do that right after my final exam on early February.



Au revoir :O

....about few months ago and I've had this idea for a long time. Scrapbook it is! with collages and doodles and writing and art stuff. I just love love anything visually magnificient.So it's like, I literally put out my whole right brain content as much I could. FYI, I post this picture right now because I've just got a scanner already.
So..anyways, in order to make this new cover, I just simply combined all these pictures from magazines. And voila! I've done a real polyvore set.

When we were kids. It was candy or something else too sweet. We've gotta hid from our parents and ate them until we got toothache. When in high school or college, it was a massive loads of youth fun and also..endless procrastinating. Well, as a college student with a full life assignments cycle, We take as much of the pleasure as we can get, because it doesn’t come around as often as it possibly should be.
As we know, good things aren’t always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, for God's sake, is not always a good thing.
But, then,

How do you know how much is too much? Too soon? Too much fun? Too much love? Too much to ask? Too much to know?

And when is it all just too much to worry about?

*just saying